..monotony..

There are a lot of things I wanted to blog about. Our Dubai escapade early this month, our midnight jogging sessions, midnight pig-out sessions, lesser inuman sessions, disco sessions, my questionable relationship with SonMar, my non-existent relationship with Bespren (and how I wanted for something more, but wishing for the impossible is pointless and hurtful), and even how sad I was to learn that Plue, my beloved dog back in the Philippines, has gone missing since yesterday.

By next month, I will be celebrating my one year here in UAE. Sadly, though, that in a year, I only learned a few Arabic words. Maybe I’ll try learning more next year.

Now looking back at this one year, I could say that aside from the random encounters with the male species, life has been monotonus. I sleep late, I go to work, either I go home or I go drinking, I sleep late, I go to work, either I go home or I go drinking, I sleep late…and it goes on and on and on and on...

I’m drying out. I know that there are others out there who feel the same way, and there are more who are experiencing lesser color in life, but kaliwali, they can complain about it in/on their own journal / blog / best friend / pet. You know that hopeful whisper you breathe in the morning ”sana may mangyaring kakaiba ngayong araw” (not in a negative way), I often do that. But alas, the best that can happen is that one of my co-workers will invite me to a pig-out session and that person will pay for my bill. And a few months before, I remember being excited every time I go to Dubai to see SonMar and have our date. But yeah, that was a few months before. Now I couldn’t care less.

But having an ordinary, monotonous life has its ups as well. Having the same routine every frickin’ day saves you the trouble of homesickness. It’s like time passes by so fast and you wouldn’t even need to count the number of days since the last time you’ve seen your family, or the last time you heard their voice on the phone, or other things like that. I don’t know if others would feel the same way, but maybe I’m just the kind of person who prefers to ride with the waves. I don’t even plan on what to do after my employment contract finishes after another year. It might be bad for my actual living life, but I just can’t find a goal, and that’s why I also have nothing to look forward to, which leads to having an ordinary, monotonous life which results to a boring life cycle that makes me lazier and indifferent about a lot of things. Argh.

And that’s it. Another random thought that buzzes through my mind while waiting for my download to finish. Crap, still two hours to go!