M.P.S.

In line with my Courtship 101 entries, I think I have to expand on this subject. I know I don’t need to write this down, but my fingers are unstoppable right now, and my hands have a mind on their own, and well, can’t control them.

I find him nice and…nice. There it goes – the Mr. Nice Guy zone. I am trying to be open on this one because first, he hasn’t really done anything drastic or unfavourable; and second, petty as it may seem, I am already, good Lord, 25 years old.

At first, his text messages gave me those doki-doki feelings, but lately his text messages are getting usual and seeing his name on my inbox is so normal already, that they almost stopped giving me butterflies. I do appreciate his efforts, especially when he bought a Sun sim card so we can talk over the phone. But I don’t like it when he suddenly talks about us. I felt uncomfortable and uneasy.

Do I seriously like him? I wanted to give it a try, honestly. I even invited him to a date (supposedly today), but we had changes in our schedules so we did not go through with it. Another reason why I don’t pass on our drinking sessions is because even though we work at the same company, we never get to see each other except during those after-work gatherings. I do not like replying to text messages unless important but I give him a special treatment. See? I am also trying here.

But somehow, I can’t help but think that he feels that with me, what he sees is what he gets. He does not understand me most of the time. He is asking for straight answers when it is not in my nature to give out straight answers (when it comes to these kind of matters). Did I not just invite him for a date? Do I not give him my consent when he kisses me after taking me home? Do I need to say out loud that yes, I am (kind of) interested in him??

He always asks where are we in the relationship process, but he is still below that ladder. Why? Because if he really is serious with courting me, then he needs to go to my house and meet my folks. I am not a high school student who needs to keep this thing from my parents. I mean, haller, we’re both adults. As I have replied in his text message, “Gumawa ka ng paraan para makumbinsi mo ako.”, and I am referring to that. I know it is conservative and probably petty, but it is important for me. Once he figures that out, he’ll get better chances with me.

So M.P.S., I kind of like you but I am hard to get. Everything is up to you.