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IN WORK

I'm starting to get tired of this whole Lead FD Officer thing. Recently, I've been making many mistakes, and I felt like I'm making things worse for other people. It was frustrating, and I felt disappointed with myself because I just can't get it right. I am not a born leader. Never a leader. I am the sort of person who just wanted to ride with the flow. In class, I'm just one of the students. In work, I'm just one of the colleagues. I wanted to eat lunch on time, wanted to go home in time, wanted to fool around with everybody else. I'm a lazy girl who doesn't want to be involved in fights. I don't easily emphatize with people, and constant arguments are making me a colder person. I'm laidback, I'm carefree. The pay is good, but honestly, I don't like to be given such a big responsibility. Everything has a price, ne?

IN LOVE

What can I say? Never had a boyfriend, never had a crush after Emer, never had any interest in the opposite sex after I graduated college. Yeah, I'm a pretty boring person.

IN FRIENDSHIP

I'm cheesy when it comes to my friends. I treasure memories, that I even had a notebook where I put all the important dates in my life. Like when this day we all watch a pointless movie together, and this day we went to another friend's house, and this day this person slipped and fell on the stairs and we all had a very good laugh. Now, I can't put anything in it anymore. Blank. I don't have a guy, so aside from my family, my friends are the next in my "who to cherish" list. I wanted attention. I wanted to be at least remembered. It's so childish. I, myself, don't get it. It's the most hideous and helpless feeling I ever felt. I am such a baby. And a very spoiled brat.

IN J-STUFF

Same routine. Got new downloads. New jdoramas to watch (in the far future), new manga/s to read, new artists to listen to. Interest in Tenimyu and JE rapidly declining. Still love L'arc~en~Ciel. Still love Hyde. Gawd, he's so sexy.

IN FAMILY

A daughter.