a-z

My 2006 A-Z

ALCOHOL
Even I can’t believe it, but my drinking habit has drastically decreased this year, and by counting the number of times I drank liquor with my friends and family, I did not even used all my fingers.

BETRAYAL
I cringed and bit my lip as I read all the text messages my friend has forwarded to me which she obviously received from her boyfriend’s wife.

COMMUNICATION
There were those persons who rarely texted or mailed me, and sometimes I felt that they don’t care anymore, but during those rare times I see their names on my inbox, a warm feeling would wash over me, and I can’t help wishing that we could talk more.

DAWN
The night has never been long as I waited for the sun to rise to finally mark my last morning at the hotel.

ENERGY
I probably started it, but the next thing we knew, I, along with Faye and Kim, were already dancing full force at their house to the tune of Macarena.

FUTURE
Faye laughed when I told her one time that I have decided that when I get pregnant, it will be twins, and they will be boys, and I will name them Fai and Liam.

GAP
It seems that every passing day, my brother is getting farther and farther away from me, and I’m afraid that someday, I won’t be able to reach him anymore.

HORROR
The number of nightmares I am having will never equal the number of spooky films I have watched.

INCONSISTENCY
I wonder how many people I have bugged because I’m always either indecisive or capricious.

JUNGLE
Even though I admit that my room is the messiest part of our house, I still feel lazy to clean it up because I know that after a few days, it will just return to its disordered state.

KIDNAP
I nodded my head and smiled sheepishly when my hotel manager scolded me after I returned two hours later, with our hotel guest apologizing for forcefully taking me to the market with her.

LOSS
After I read my mom’s text message, I asked for a 5-minute break from work to cry and mourn for Dibbun’s death.

MUSIC
To distract myself from the nervousness that’s building up inside me, I plugged my earphones and hummed to the song that’s playing on my mp3 player as I wait for the secretary to call my name for my job interview.

NUMBER
I lost count to how many of my relatives had asked me when I will get married, when in fact, I don’t even have a boyfriend yet.

OUTSIDE
Watching my lifelong friend shed some tears was really painful, because we both know that there is only one wall separating us from the person we were supposed to be visiting, yet we can’t.

PREGNANCY
I listened hard to my friend as she told me how and why she decided not to keep the baby inside her, and silently wondered if she would regret it someday.

QUEUE
Unlimited internet connection can sometimes be a headache since I can’t decide which to download first -- jdramas or mangas or tenimyu or JE or jpop or some other stuff.

REST
And until when will I stay as a BUM, I wonder.

SURPRISE
I pouted and crossed my arms across my chest as I complained that I did not receive any gift this Christmas, until my parents handed me a green box containing the thing I have desired for the past five Christmases.

THIRST
Looking at all my companions, I bet we were all wanting the same thing as we hiked to the top of Mount Banahaw under the scorching heat of the sun.

UNICORN
How many times have I asked myself what the hell is that excess skin sticking out in my forehead, then one day it will just disappear, only to grow again after some time.

VIRGINITY
I cursed as I walked limping back to my grandparents’ house, and when I was finally able to lie down on the bed, I asked myself if biking on a very rough, stony road would eventually destroy the innocence of my lower regions.

WATER
Since the property was huge, it’s really hard to decide which of the pools to try out first, but the sight of the slide was really, really tempting.

XTIAN
My mom would surely scold me if she ever learns that the number of times I went to Church this year would not probably exceed my age.

YOUTH
Past three graduations, sixteen years of studying, and 21 birthdays, I wonder if I may now be called an adult.

ZOO
Four times I have wondered about this -- maybe I should have been a vet.